“Of course it hasn’t been easy.”
My point goes unnoticed as the women in the room continue their pointed and heated argument about my situation. Note the sarcasm.
Irritated by how they taking this, I stood up and walked to the kitchen. I’d only gotten three steps out the door when the doorbell rang.
It penetrated through the pandemonium in the living room like a blade and my sister, Anna went to open it. Her gasp was all I needed to march upstairs and lock myself in my old room.
The walls were covered with my old pictures. I ran my hand across them, reliving the memories I would carry with me forever and purposefully avoiding the ones of me and David.
The room is squeaky clean, which doesn’t come as a surprise since it was uses as a guest room even when I was still living here.
Three pounds come swiftly at the door but I ignore the pleas that their silence carries. Almost subconsciously, I ran a hand over my forehead where the bandage was. I winced at the zolt of pain that ran through me. Still too fresh, just like everything else.
“Darling, please…” He trails off but I maintained my position on the other side of the room, pinning down the emotions that his voice, his sincere voice, made rush through me.
‘I will not cry’, I whisper the old mantra, pushing back the tears that welled in my eyes. ‘I will not cry.’
“I’m sorry. Please just… come back to me. I promise…” He trails off but this time I walk slowly, steadily towards the door.
I open it up a crack first and say, “I’ll send you the divorce papers as soon as I get them.” My tone is probably the coldest it has ever been but at the same time, it’s begging him to go.
I’ve always hated confrontations and this one with David is one of the worst I’ll ever want to put myself through.
“Diana, please let me…”
“It’s over, David. The first time this happened I came back to you because I was so in love, I was afraid to let go. But now, I need to. For both your sake and,” I placed a hand on my stomach. “And ours.”
I shut the door then and the baby kicked and I knew it was the right choice.